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Tuesday, October 5, 2010
How much time are you going to waste?
Hey everyone,
And... no one. I know people dont read this blog, because I don't have any followers on here. smh.
Well, today I wanted write about how I feel. I'm actually heart-broken right now. No details, but i miss someone very very much. The problem is, it was my fault and I pushed her away. That back-fired on me so much its terrible. I can't even express how regretful i am of that decision. problem is. I can't do anything about it. It seems that all i do is think about her all day long. I wish she would open up to me. (good luck with that!) lol
Well,
truth is, I've done that to God so many times it isn't funny. I've been running away from him like the prodigal son. Its terrible. I get in this funky mood, and I really show him the boot. I remember a few instances in my life where God clearly was trying to show me love and i totally messed it up. such a dummy i am.
The beautiful thing about God is that he always forgives and though I have to suffer the consequences, he loves me through it. Its so amazing how he does these things. Like he will never give up on me. I love him for that. I really do. Seeing how i learn things the hard way.. I barely, just barely, understand how he feels when he is pushed away.. cause i feel pushed away right now. sigh.
Another thing that I love about God is that he promises me that he has a plan for my life. That's crazy.. cause even though I push him away.. he STILL has a plan. hm..
That's a dude i can worship. And that's somebody i will give my life for. He loves me inspite of my foolishness and he longs to be with me.
A friend asked me "how much time am I going to waste" and I made a serious effort and took some time to follow my heart. Now I realize the Holy Spirit was told him to tell me that for an additional reason.
Jerrick, God Loves you man, TRUST HIM. "How much time are you going to waste?"
And... no one. I know people dont read this blog, because I don't have any followers on here. smh.
Well, today I wanted write about how I feel. I'm actually heart-broken right now. No details, but i miss someone very very much. The problem is, it was my fault and I pushed her away. That back-fired on me so much its terrible. I can't even express how regretful i am of that decision. problem is. I can't do anything about it. It seems that all i do is think about her all day long. I wish she would open up to me. (good luck with that!) lol
Well,
truth is, I've done that to God so many times it isn't funny. I've been running away from him like the prodigal son. Its terrible. I get in this funky mood, and I really show him the boot. I remember a few instances in my life where God clearly was trying to show me love and i totally messed it up. such a dummy i am.
The beautiful thing about God is that he always forgives and though I have to suffer the consequences, he loves me through it. Its so amazing how he does these things. Like he will never give up on me. I love him for that. I really do. Seeing how i learn things the hard way.. I barely, just barely, understand how he feels when he is pushed away.. cause i feel pushed away right now. sigh.
Another thing that I love about God is that he promises me that he has a plan for my life. That's crazy.. cause even though I push him away.. he STILL has a plan. hm..
That's a dude i can worship. And that's somebody i will give my life for. He loves me inspite of my foolishness and he longs to be with me.
A friend asked me "how much time am I going to waste" and I made a serious effort and took some time to follow my heart. Now I realize the Holy Spirit was told him to tell me that for an additional reason.
Jerrick, God Loves you man, TRUST HIM. "How much time are you going to waste?"
